New Blog ....... because it's cheaper than therapy.

After a lot of thought, I have decided to end this blog. I started it when I was 20 and actively wrote in it for nearly 3 years. I feel like everything I say about myself is repetitive. I keep making the same mistakes, I still have the same fears, and keep settling for the same mediocrity.

I crave major change and overhaul. Just what and how...is yet to be seen.

Thank you for those who read and commented, and I will inform you if I decide to start a new blog. I'll leave this one up for awhile.

PS - the new school is going fine -- an overwhelming amount of work, but the kids are adorably precocious and fun. and we listen to chopin at our catered lunches. :)

Je t'aime, tous <3

Is it wrong that I already want to bite the heads off the super-micromanaging upper echelon? Am I incurable if I simply cannot go to bed before midnight without drinking lots of wine? I don't have my own classroom so I don't have anything to decorate....and I swear, it's just like my old nightmares where the school bus driver knocks on my door because I'm late and I have to go to school in old jeans and pajama top and no school supplies. I have no freakin clue how tomorrow is going to go down. I'm so worried I'm going to hate my job again because in my heart of hearts I think I just really hate work in general.

At least their cafeteria food is good.

I know this is lame...but I'm back at it.



Time to get my ass off the couch. It helps that I have a stomach bug and don't want to eat much. But I know that will only last so long. :)

Ah, Ben Folds is truly the music dork's musician, and this whole video would be 100% awesome if he didn't keep going flat. It's only 99% awesome. Where else can you bring your guitar to a concert and play along?



I will always love that song. ** they will see us waving from such great heights, 'come down now!' they'll say...**

Ok, I just watched Easy Rider on TV because I'm bored and Matt's at work. It's aparently a big deal, but honestly I was pretty bored until the end. However, this scene scared.the.crap.out.of.me. Why would anyone ever do acid??

back from Seattle! It was great. I'm tired, so just go look at the pictures on flickr. I explained most everything which is as good as a blog post. I feel like there's a ton of bricks on me now, starting this new school...my "chef de département" wants to see my crazy detailed IB-acceptable lesson plans Wednesday when In-Service starts. So, I probably won't write for awhile. Stay well my friends. PS - thank you very much Brandon and Emily for coming out Friday night. Good to see y'all. Rob nor my step-sis read this but they know I'm grateful for hospitality....and Crystal!! I am so sorry American Airlines completely ruined our plans of biking. That would have been so great. I hope you feel better and had a good weekend. The weather was GORGEOUS!!

Anyway, pictures are here.

I'm definitely sending my future kids to bilingual schools. It's embarrassing for myself, after having 10 years off and on of French ,that it still hurts my brain to listen and process long blurbs of instruction from my new (native speaker ) department chair. It humbles me to really only have the ability to answer in simple sentences. Impromptu speaking has always just made my mind go blank, especially after long periods without practice.

So, my inflated ego from last nights' boggle game wins against Matt has been depleted. Now if we played "el bogglé", well, I'm sure he'd kick my ass. I also feel ignorant by being a Texan my whole life and not knowing Spanish. It should just happen through osmosis. Alas, no.

Oh, PS, I don't know if I said but: I amnotgoingtogradschoolyetbecauseImissedalotofdeadlinesduetolazinessandunpreparedness. Shouldbeabletogointhespringorsummer. There. I wish I had the giddy-uppedness as so many of my friends and colleagues do, ( i know people my age who are DONE with their masters' ), but I tend to do things in my own time. I've said before...everything looks so good and logical in my head, it's the putting it into action that kills me.

Well, anyway.

Attention Seattlites! I'm a-comin'.

These are my plans so far, I would be happy to fit you in for lunch/dinner/sight-seeing:

Friday arrive at airport @ 12:20 PM. My step sister, Rob, and I assume everyone else is working, so I'm going to take a cab or bus to downtown and will eat lunch and just walk around. I decided not to stay at the hostel because my step-sister said the dirty hippies will steal my stuff. Whatever...but I am going to stay with her and that's free, so that works. When she gets off work she's going to come get me and we'll eat dinner and go for drinks, most likely.

Saturday is when I meet up with Rob for the space needle, aquarium, market, anything else of interest. Crystal, would you like to meet up for lunch or dinner? Brandon, want to show Rob and I some good Washington beer?

Sunday is wide open. I wish I had time to go to Vancouver or Victoria. My flight leaves at 5:10 that day so I have plenty of time to have lunch or sight-see.

Let me know if you want to hang out!